I have decided that eye contact is sorely missing from our lives. We are in such a hurry, managing the chaos, we tell each other what we want without actually making eye contact. It’s no wonder we are managing chaos! I know how we got here. We had two toddlers: one who was like a runaway kite, you knew he would land, but you weren’t sure where and in what condition and the other who needed me to hold her close, smell her baby smell and prop her up for floor time. Poor Cameron got instruction without connection. It’s really no wonder he speaks to us without respect, we haven’t shown him respect either.
Sometimes, I hate how raising kids takes so much responsibility. Especially when it really is my own fault. But I do like figuring it out and trying to make it better.